Take It All.

Sunday not only did I fail epically at Evangelizing, but I also fell off of a skateboard and bruised my tailbone. Two days later and I was sitting at our school minding my own business (reading my Bible for pete's sake) and kids playing soccer with a water bottle hit me in the face with their bottle. So now, I have a bruised bum, and a gnarly looking blackeye. You would think that I would be miserable, but strangely I feel so ALIVE. My nerves are buzzing with excitement over something I can't put into words. All I did today was go to class and read my Bible for a few hours. Yet I find myself increasingly happier and just content to sit and dive into God's word. Every day I fall more and more into just letting go of this world and finding my joy through Him. Today I was reading in Matthew about the crucifixtion of Jesus and His resurrection, and I am reeling from the aftershock of thankfulness I am left with. I am so unworthy, and I realized that there is nothing that I can do during my time here in El Salvador that would be more beneficial than just sitting back and letting myself fall more and more in love with MY GOD! I know Christians go through highs and lows of their "fire" for God. It's normal some days to feel like, hey I'm just not feeling God today even though I know He's always there. I'm going to ride this fire until I can't feel it burning anymore, and then I'm going to find some way to set my soul ablaze again. Maybe if I fuel myself enough every single day, I won't ever have to loose this new light in my life. I don't plan to let this go. I don't plan to ever go back to the way I was before. I don't plan to fall back into being a complacent Christian. Skeptics constantly ask, why should I believe in something that I have no tangible proof of? Well that's faith isn't it? I don't need to see it to believe it, but right about now...I'm feeling something MAJOR stirring inside of me. I'm leaving the desert of my past behind me. I'm revelling in the storm brewing in my heart and mind and soul this very second. I'm welcoming the thunder and lightning and torrential rain that await me in my future. Here I am, Lord. Pour over me.

All For His Glory,
Taylor